still waiting

i'm still waiting for answers about what's really going on with the lung mass. i learned after waiting for the amnio results last time that the waiting is definitely one of the hardest parts for possible bad news. at least if i knew for sure - yes i have cancer - i could be strong, deal, and move on. but just waiting around for little tidbits of information tends to make me obsessive about it all.

i'm going to try to take my own advice and just not think about it. i have a consultation with a thorasic surgeon next week (on halloween!) and i'll hopefully know more then.